Festive Season

Will your thoughts and actions be affected by the festive season?!?!?! For example... During X'mas you will have a bigger urge to share your blessings with the ppl ard you.... or during CNY you will want to spend more time with your family.... or during Valentines Day all the quarrels/arguements become so meaningless, you just wanna patch things up with your ex-gf/bf  OR  have the urge to confess your love to that special someone?

I am not sure about you guys... but I thk the Festive Atmosphere do play a part in my life. Does that mean I am easily swayed?!? Hm.... maybe maybe..... Festive Seasons are special occasions for us to rejoice and celebrate... which means its ok to follow the atmosphere and go with the flow rite?!?

Right... I thk...

My flight back to Melbourne is on Thursday.... having to leave during CNY feels......... HORRIBLE.... makes me miss my family even more.... although it has been a 2 mths plus holiday... time seems to FLY...... How I wish time in Melbourne can pass just as fast....

Missing All My Family & Friends Already.........

14/02/10

Happy New Year!!~~~ & a Happy Valentines Day!!!~~~ (Even for ppl who have to spend it with their dogs ok LOL) Lets see... my emotion today is abit complex.... as usual... sometimes I just cant stop myself from thking too much! (I DUN WANNA BE LIKE THIS TOO!!!) I would be jumping from one topic to the next Eh~~~ So bear with it.

Recently I bought a Canon S90 bcse my G10 is JUST TOO HEAVY & BIG!!!!! *Argh* It really frustrates me bcse without tat stupid camera my bag already weighs a ton. Which means I wod only bring it out when I know for sure I am going to use it..... Soooo when I happen to see thgs tat I wanna take pic of... I CANNOT DO IT!!!! So now I AM SO HAPPY to have a good compact camera~~

*MuackS* Ty Camera~ Love You To Bits

Anyway I took my S90 and took Beautiful pictureS of my Precious Chio Bu Qbi~~ (I shall upload the pics SOON... hopefully) I was trying to upload them so that I can show the world how wonderful my dog looks LOL LOL but instead I stumbled on a folder in the computer..... The folder is called "Gemus Baptism 5th Feb 2006"... I cant help but look through the folder.... and it brought tears to my eyes.... I shall upload a few of the pictures....

~Gemus~

Isnt he the cutest thg ever.... He is always happy... always vibrant... always bring so much Joy and Laughter to the people around him. We Miss You...

Before he was dipped into the Holy Water

LoL Tat Freaked Him Out... So Cute

Yeah!! Gemus you are baptised

You are Forever Our LiL Angel

A rare pic of me and baby Gemus

Look how much he has grown... from the lil baby to the smart cheerful boy..

He drowned in the pool awhile back... I still remember I was having dinner with my family when my mom received a call..... He was in the hospital... the next thg I know all of us stopped eating... My mom and I rushed to the hospital... I can still remember all the tubes all over his face and body.... all the beeping equipments that were sustaining his life.... He looked so small in that bed... He looked so peaceful... like he was just asleep.... I was telling myself no matter what I cannot tear bcse if I do it will just make his parents feel worst.... but when the nurses and doctors pushed him out of the ICU I lost it & went to the toilet to cry... No one will ever truly understand why God choose to take him back.... but we know that Gemus will forever be in our hearts... He will never be forgotten.... He will always and forever be our LiL Angel.... We Love You Gemus.......

I was surfing through facebook just now and saw that "someone" was going to a party...... I know its none of my business.... but everytime I see such thgs.... it reminds me of the dreadful feeling that I felt so so so often during my Poly days.... The feeling that your heart just sank into a deep deep hole..... or the feeling tat someone has pushed you underground so deep... crawling out drains ALL your energy..... Y does it still bothers me? Logically.... I should no longer be affected.... Logically..... My mom always tells me that "Time heals all pain"...... If its really true.... Y doesnt it heal this one.....

Bruises.... Cuts.... Sprains.....

I know some of you would be like WTH!!! Such thgs also wanna blog!!! Its very de lame rite.... I know... BUT.... I have to vent my frustration somewhere!!!! So bear with me...... From the time I came back from Hong Kong (27th Jan 2010) till today......... I have 1 huge bruise tat has not fade till now (the lil accident happened at Sg Airport's carpark... (YES right after I landed!!!!)......  TONS of paper cuts............. and I manage to sprain my feet over 6 times (NOTE: I am only counting the really painful sprains)............. Oh yea.. lets not forget abt my KE LIAN de FINGERS!!!! cause I always manage to close the ring file while my finger is still in between them T.T Now... I am not even counting the COUNTLESS times I knock my shoulder onto the edge of the doors or the times I knocked my hip onto the edge of the tables T.T Oh this just reminded me.... and my poor toes....... I actually kicked the leg of the study chair REALLY HARD just this morning before I head for work..... it was so painful I had to jump onto the bed and make sure my toes are still intact..... the pain stayed with me for the WHOLE morning T.T So I was walking ard the office like a handicap.....  

The WORST part is..... I was the one that befalled all THESE pain and sufferings on myself T.T    I mean if someone else was to hurt you.... you can still scold the person or punch him/her or stepped on his/her feet REALLY hard while you are wearing heels.... (LOL.... wahahaha letting my imagination run wild Heh Heh Heh *EVIL*) Anyway at least you can say things like "I am DAMN suai ah" but if you are the one hurting yourself..... what can you do?!?!?!?!?! (Ooooo maybe I can just sit down on the floor and start crying) Hey! It works for kids ok.... maybe the tears helps to ease the pain lor!

So! Pray Hard that I would NOT get HURT anytime soon oki!!!!!

Whats the point

What is the difference between having a Bf and not have a Bf?!? Sometimes I really cant help but wonder.

Emotional Again

I have so much on my mind lately.... every little thing I see or experience trigers memories and fears that I have forgotten in awhile. Really wish there is someone to lend me a shoulder to cry on..... One that doesnt ask questions.... One that doesnt mind the silence.... One that gives me an oppurtunity to be away from all the hustles of life while letting me know that there is someone who cares.