28 June 2010


Caught a cold from the cinema yesterday.. Was sitting right underneath the air con *Brrrrrr* the worst thing was.... I remembered to take a jacket before leaving the hse.... the problem was... I DUN HAVE ONE!!! *Faint* Anyway.... when i went to bed.... my thin blanky did not help me either...... So.... Wa lah.... I woke up with a headache and a cold... (T.T) could feel my body temperature fluctuating... hot... cold... hot... cold.... at some point... I really wanted to pluck my nose off and throw them away.

Brought Lun Lun to IMM in the afternoon to grab him a pair of new shoe as well as buy some groceries..... The queue in Giant was.... RIDICULOUS!!!!! If it is Hong Kong I think the cashier would have been shot down by the customers lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggg ago. Speed up Speed up! Dun understand how they can still take their own sweet time laughing and talking to the customers when the queue is sooo freaking long. Hm..... maybe now is my mood swing period or the sickness is getting to me..... the more I saw her laughing the more I felt like jumping over the counter to punch her.... (which I did... in my imagination)

Finally got home a few hours later.... I KO and went to take a nap.... when it was time for dinner I woke up with an even worst headache.... Din really had an appetite... and the poorly cooked rice made it even worst...... Think I should start cooking and ask the maid to move aside from now on.....

Still feeling like crap...  I rested on the sofa for awhile and decided to head back to sleep.... My maid got me an extra blanky (another shitty one... at least 2 is better than 1), Lun Lun tucked me in.... while I reminded him to pack his bag for school.... check whether all his homework is done and hang out his school attire.... after which I just black out... (Yes.... it felt horrible..... as thou I was coming down with a fever). Woke up at 12am..... felt better.... took a REALLY HOT bath, praying my flu will just go away.

Dunno y... but I had this huge urge to watch LEE SOO YOUNG's MV (Lee Jun Ki is the male lead!)... went to youtube to search for it and post it on my blog to show all of you~~~ Think I posted it once over a yr ago.... but who cares... I like it~ 

I love the story.. love it so much. Its about the female lead falling in love with the male lead when she happened to see him perform on the street one day.... She decided to join the club he is in so as to know him better. The male lead falls in love with the female lead as well.... but wasnt able to accept her bcse there was a third gal that loves him deeply. So much so that she begged her father to give one of her eyes to the male lead after an accident happened in the lab. The male lead felt that he is in debt of her (the third gal) and decided to be with her for the rest of his life..... A very sad love story.... Here goes:

Grace 1

Grace 2

Part 3 of Grace... but this song is called "Secret"

Watching "Secret" always give me heartaches.

To conclude for this post..... Things I gotta buy:
- Jacket
- Blanket
- Panadol

Oki now I gotta double check Lun Lun's school bag and head to bed lor!! Nite Nite everyone~

23 June 2010

Secondary School Days - A confession

Had a fantastic time with KiKi yesterday! Through out our dinner we were talking about our Secondary School days. I love being in an all girls' school! Its AWESOME!

 Forgot to take a picture of my food (>.<) Oh well doesnt matter.. Cant remember what I ate

Anyway we started gossiping here and there LOL.. reminiscing about the good and the bad times. Wondering about the girls who were once part of our lifes and are now no where to be found. During our conversation I found out that I used to be really rude and crude... Din really care about how others might feel.... slamming tables and chairs all the time... scolding classmates... making them cry (>.<) Was I really that bad?!?!?!?! Seriously.. I only remember skipping school a FEW (cant remember how many times) times.... threatening my form teacher (so that she wodnt call my parents)..... scolding two people in class and thats bcse I was really really angry at them (1) for bossing me around... (2) for throwing away my stuff LOL! Oh! Three people actually... one of them I am not sorry for. Until now... I will still say... YOU DESERVE IT! For spreading lies about me in school and acting like you are my BEST friend. You deserve to be isolated and boycott for LIFE.

Even Ah Moon and KiKi my BFFs said that they kanna from my wrath before (@.@) I am soooo sorry.... To all my STC classmates (except you know who) whom I have hurt in the past.... I am sorry!! If I had done something mean towards you and I have not confessed about it in this post..... Either I did not realise I was doing it or I was doing it bcse I WAS SO CHILDISH!! Forgive me all my lovely friends~ 

There are things I cannot change.......

Had a wonderful dinner session with KiKi.... I was finally able to relax after being a babysitter for the past few days.... Never would I expect this day to come to a bad end. Hadnt felt such pain and sadness in over a month.... I try and I try to improve myself... I really did... Why do you keep picking on faults that I have no control over.... Why cant u see the effort and hardwork I put in instead..... Why do you always hv to break your very first promise.

21 June 2010

Lost for Words....

Have you ever wanted something for a long long time? You dream about it in your sleep... daydream about it when you are awake... praying and hoping that it will become a reality? You imagined a thousand scenerios about how you will react when it finally comes true?

When my wish became a reality... my reaction was none of those I imgained. I wasnt able to pin point exactly what I was feeling. It was like a hundred different kinds of emotions washing over me at the same time.  Did not know what to say or how to react... Just..... at a Lost for Words.

17 June 2010


Finally I am free to start blogging again! Anyway I was serving through facebook and saw some really sweet comments and posts among my couple friends. I feel happy for them but at the same time it struck me real hard that they achieved something I wasnt able to.

The lovely handmade cards and presents, the willingness to spend more time with their gfs. Looking at their facebook page just tears my wound apart. What makes their gfs so special? What is the element that makes their relationship such a success even after years of being together? If its just 1 couple I understand that they might just be special but I can name a handful just like that! Which means... I am such a failure... maybe being in a relationship is not my forte.

I always ask my mom.... How would I know who is truly suitable for me...... My mom answers... Just Pray for God to give you guidance.........