I Need To Find Myself Again

Feeling so horrible rite now... I have been alright for the past few days..... I hate it when my emotions fluctuate like this.... When can I get over this.... In the past when I get really upset and codnt fall aslp in the middle of the night I can always call my bf..... bcse of this it makes me feel even worst this very moment... it made me realise rite now there is no one I can call or talk to in the middle of the nite... I feel absolutely awful....... I dun wanna be like this... I need some distraction....